You were not made to transform a crowd, but rather, you were made to transform a multitude! God didn’t create you to nurse a tree, but rather He created you to produce a forest! I don’t know how this seems to appear to you. But in any case, just believe that you were not called to write a book, but rather, you were called to author a library! God calls big trees out of small seeds, so He prepared great things in your small mind and will definitely call out those things provided you allow Him to do so! I believe you will give Him the way!